Friday, March 23, 2007
hallo. its kinda stupid that my own computer cant open my own blog. have to go coup someones comp or lappy to actually view my own blog. sad right...
anyways. went for cell. haha, greatest cell ever, never have i left the house 5 minutes before the cell meeting time and not be late! haha. silly john splashed a puddle of water on me. haha. now need to take another bathe!!
anyways. went school to find miss xiao today. haha. her stance and look sort of gave me the, i not impressed by ur performance look, better do something about it, den met julie [thanks for the free lunch!] who came to hand up her art and went towning. watched mr bean, went shopping, man my legs almost died, den came home, bathed, went for cell!
anyways, felt cell today was really meaningful, i sort of like the way members in the cell sort of rise up and get to do things during cgm, heh, its like they really step up, so cool! den the praise and worship was loud and joyful, heh, the presence really felt fresh!!
but the word today really spoke straight to my heart. as in, its really one of those ouch ouch ouch sermon cus everything seems to be describing ur life right now.
From that time many of His disciples went back and walked with Him no more. Then Jesus said to the twelve, “Do you also want to go away?” But Simon Peter answered Him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life...
This verse really impacted me today.
Veron preached about the effects of prolonged spiritual starvation and dehydration just like physical starvation and dehydration
happens in chronological order,
prolonged spiritual starvation:
1. body weight declines rapidly (lose the the glory "weight" of God)
2. proteins in your muscles break down (lose passion, energy, strength to serve the Lord)
3. skin becomes thin, cold, pale (easily offended, lose your joy, become stiff and stubborn)
4. lose desire and ability to reproduce (no desire for the great commission)
5. annemia will set in, faint easily (fall to temptation easily, lack of protection of Jesus' blood)
6. body temperature will drop (love towards God will grow cold and passive)
7. the body immunity system will break down (no longer able to resist the value or desires of the word)
8. your brain starts to break down (carnal thinking takes over your decisions in life)
9. blood pressyre starts to fall and heart does not function anymore (lose the love for other people)
10. death sets in (spiritual death)
prolonged spiritual dehydration:
1. lose salt (lose your flavour as salt of the world)
2. develop a fever (hot for all the wrong passions)
3. dizzy and weak (lose sense of discernment and direction)
4. unable to shed tears (cant weep in the presence of God)
5. kidney will start to fail (lose your holiness for God)
6. death sets in (spiritual death)
i guess when veron was at point 7, i felt a burden in my heart, and when she was later on at 3, i felt that same burden again. den for awhile i just felt really sad and condemned, and den its like, wad she said after really touched me la, spiritually and emotionally too, its like, she said, whether ur at pooint 2 or at point 9.9, if u have a willing heart, God will not let your spirit die. and den she went on to tell us, how its really like, and it was really how i felt, discouraged, sad, beaten down, by everything, cell wise, one left, two left, three left, four left, den a big year of problems, den five left, den the cell disbanded, stresses of school work and businesses of life and also temptation, habitual sin. and there was really this conflict inside of u, one that wants to leave, but one that does not want to, i remember describing it to yating when she called me last week, but todays sermon touched me loads la, especially the verse i typed above and this one as well
A bruised reed He will not break,
And smoking flax He will not quench,
Till He sends forth justice to victory...
|cowpoo| 11:25 PM|
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